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"Ghost has a dog," the people cry. "It's a German Shepherd!"
"A Rottweiler!" Another argues.
"A Doberman!"
"Whatever the breed it's something big and tough like him!"
"No!" I shout. "No! He has a tiny dog! An ugly thing that looks like it's been through hell. Like a Gremlin that's been fed after midnight and put through the propeller of a jumbo jet! A dog like this!"
"Boo!" Everyone shouts even though I'm right.
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it is only necessary to know that love is a direction and not a state of the soul. if one is unaware of this, one falls into despair at the first onslaught of affection. simone weil, the love of god and affliction
#simone weil#the love of god and affliction#inspo#muse inspo#quotes#words#dark academia#light academia#love#poetry#literature#dark academia quote#love quotes#lovecore#feelings
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⥠ANTHONY & KATE BRIDGERTON bridgerton season 3
#jonathan bailey#jonathan bailey gifs#jbaileyedit#jonathanbaileyedit#simone ashley#simone ashley gifs#sashleyedit#simoneashleyedit#kanthony#kanthonyedit#bridgertonedit#bridgertoncast#bridgertionladies#dailybridgerton#perioddramaedit#ship inspo#faceless gif#faceless inspo#muse inspo#*
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soap who has a sketchbook full of pages only filled with ghostâs portrait. thereâs a timeline visible with each sketch. the first time saw ghostâs face is the first page. crystal clear clarity with dark crisp lines, sure with every stroke. the picture gets less clear as time goes on. once again, the picture is clear. this time, thereâs beauty marks and scars in perfect detail. soap and ghost are an item now, and ghost is for sure soapâs muse. for a while, all the portraits are as close as one can get to picture perfect. the pages start to get smudged. harsh, angry lines. stains just like tear drops. steadily, the face that once filled the pages from an adoring view becomes murky and shaky. soap never gets to finish the sketchbook.
#tw mcd#oopsie#something something an artist forgeting what his muse looks like#john soap mactavish#ghostsoap#ghost x soap#soap x ghost#simon ghost riley#soap cod#soap call of duty#ghost cod#soap angst#ghost angst#ghoap angst#ghoap drabble#cod drabble#soapghost#ghoap#earâs drabbles
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// Fionna and Cake ep 6 spoilers
I love how much Simonâs concern for the Candy Queen (âthereâs a brilliant scientist in there somewhereâ) tells about his character. Like yeah, heâs projecting and heâs desperate because he can relate to being trapped in that madness. Itâs devastating for him to see that in someone else, and the people around her treating her without the empathy he was given in Ooo.
It also shows the care and respect heâs developed for bubblegum as a person and as a scientist. He knows sheâs a genius, heâs probably gotten to know her really well through Marcy after the events of AT. And itâs just so cool to pick up on the implication that their dynamic is so much more familiar than where we left off in the finale.
#this ep was insanely good#ep 5 too but holy shit#AND THE MUSIC!!!#fionna and cake spoilers#fionna and cake#adventure time#simon petrikov#the winter king#jp musings
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blond haired emotionally repressed princes + dark haired anti monarchists boys with curls the other one is obsessed with + them playing a piano together = best scenes ever
#red white and royal blue#young royals#nicolas galitzine#taylor zakhar perez#alex claremont diaz#henry fox mountchristen windsor#prince wilhelm#simon eriksson#rwrb#rwrb book#rwrb movie#rwrb film#rwrb alex#rwrb henry#simon x wilhelm#frog prince#first prince#random#boy love#musings#love quotes#movies#young royals s3#omar rudberg#edvin ryding
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âI take issues with any man who views women merely as chattels and breeding stock.â
kaitlin's 100 favorite female muses â 25/100: Kate Sharma / Bridgerton
#character aesthetics#character challenge#kate bridgerton#kate sharma#kate sheffield#bridgerton#bridgerton netflix#bridgerton aesthetic#bridgerton edit#bridgerton moodboard#kaitlin's 100 favorite female muses#moodboard#character moodboard#character aesthetic#aesthetics#aesthetic board#Kate sharma aesthetic#kathani sharma#kathani bridgerton#bridgerton season 2#anthony bridgerton#simone ashley#kate x anthony#kathani and anthony#kanthony
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task force 141 as inspirational quotes because we need more cod comfort content out there :) side note: thank you thank you thank you for 110 followers!!! (who aren't bots!!!) i love when you guys interact with my posts :D
#this is my current solution to my cod audio post :3#cod#cod modern warfare#task force 141#cod 141#captain price#captain john price#john price#kyle garrick#kyle gaz garrick#gaz cod#simon ghost riley#simon riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap mactavish#soap cod#mud's musings
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In a Week by Hozier ft. Karen Cowley
âThe raven is death, obviously. When I die, I want a good tombstoneâsomething right spooky. LTâs got something against the underground, though youâd think that would be just his kind of place. Thatâs alright. He needs to, he can cremate me. Itâs not exactly Catholic, and Mam would turn in her grave, but God is a unicorn and no one is pure anymore, so. Whatâs all that got to do with me?â
Johnny âSoapâ McTavish has a journal. Had. It is his no longer.
Simon âGhostâ Riley had dreamsâawful ones, the kind that sank claws into his lungs, dragged him into sleep, and then sent him careening out of it. He still has dreams, but theyâre different, now. Better. Johnnyâs pages have folded themselves under his eyes and gotten into his head, brighter and more infectious than anything else has ever been. Itâs more than the past, that rotting carcass behind him, and more than now. Now is nothing. Now is ash. Itâs like, itâs likeâblinding, is what it is. Heâs a blind man.
It is biblical now. Ghost has read it backward and forward and sideways and inside out. When he runs out of things to read, he reads them again, and when that is not enough, he reads between the lines.
#ghostsoap#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#soapghost#soap x ghost#ghoap#call of duty#cod mw3#my art#ghost is obsessed with soaps journal bc it breaks his heart at first like really tears it apart but soon focuses on what soap has written#about him. words of admiration and envy and love and fondness. real fondness. jokes made for him thoughts about him musings etc.#and johnnys snippets about his family and how he wants to settle down eventually#then all simon can think about is what life they couldâve lived together after the âwarâ#nevermind that there will always be war be death be blood and love is there and it matters but it changes nothing#for simon there will always be johnny#who even knows if thats what soap wanted if he loved him back if ghost even remembers him as he was instead of what he wishes he could have#become to ghost if things had gone as they should. who knows. the dead dont sing dont speak. all thats left is what they wrote#the cigarettes refer to soaps smoking habit and how ghost disapproves like a nagging wife. the ash smudges and burns in the paper allude to#ghost deciding to have soap cremated as a spouse decides post mortem due to his own aversion to being underground bc he doesnât want soap#to be nothing but a decomposing body. he couldnât bear that. he couldnât bury him alive or dead so burning it is
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Legato, Staccato
Ghoap x gn!reader
Fluff - 981 words
The barest hint of smut. Something soft and sweet.
The snow is coming down like falling cotton while the wind howls like a banshee, but it still doesnât stand up to all the warmth around you.
Johnny will be meeting you outside any moment now and Simon will follow soon after. Itâs hard not to spend hours perusing the carefully curated shelves of books, and a happy Si is a happy triad. There are plenty of new works from local authors, but itâs the older finds that draw him in - crinkled and delicate with intricate illuminations and richly coloured bindings.Â
Itâs a quaint place - warm oak and brass inside, cornflower walls with creamy white trim on the exterior. There are twin waves of built up snow curling in from the flaked paint of the window frame, swirling fractals meeting in the middle. Youâd like to scratch at the tiny needles, to run your fingers through the glassy little stalactites hanging from the sill.Â
You could reach out and place a warm palm on the window to feel the crystals morph and melt around your palm, put your own mark amongst them, be a part of something beautiful. You wouldnât want to ruin it, though.
âYour mindâs wanderinâ again, hen.â He always sees right through you. You were so lost in allusion that you didnât even hear him come out.
He scoops up a little dollop of powdery snow and blows it at you, flakes catching the wind like the wispy fluff of a dandelion. Your noise crinkles as a giggle trickles out of your upended frown. His gaze follows yours to the pattern on the window.
âMm, pretty, isnât it?â Thereâs a fondness in his voice, but itâs light. Thoughts floating like a silvery feather as opposed to your own, which carry the weight and overinflated gravitas of a lead ballerina.Â
He presses a thumb into the crunchy ice until it gives way and runs down the window in a frigid rivulet. He grabs you by the hand, pulls off the mitten, and presses your thumb down to melt a little heart into the window. A golden orange light flickers and thrums through the joint fingerprints from a candle just beyond the pane.
As he turns to you, there are fluffy flakes clinging to his lashes, and his cheeks are a little rosier than before. Heâs not alone in that - you feel the blood rushing to your own face as he tips your chin up, appraising you under the streetlampâs light.Â
He brushes his lips against yours, and the moment crescendos fast. It doesnât let up, and you can feel the sizzle and pop as you heat up. His tongue meets yours and you feel lost and completely tethered all at once.
Your reverie is interrupted, but itâs welcome. Simon exits the shop as a little bell chimes above his head. Warmth floods you as he strolls closer, and you donât know if itâs the heat escaping the building, or if itâs just *him*.
Thereâs a brown paper bag under his arm, folded up tight to shield new books from the blizzard. He looks at you, then at Johnny, off toward your frozen heart, and back to Johnny again. His eyes crinkle at the edges, a telltale sign that the knife-kissed edges of his mouth are quirked up under the mask. In the dim of the night, their faces are lit up like a Christmas tree.Â
Simon squints at the print thatâs slowly frosting over and melts it anew, splaying his whole hand out beside it. He crowds you against the worn, wooden facade and frees his mouth from behind the fabric. Itâs a soft kiss, languid and warm. Comfortable. A hand creeps up beneath the wool of your coat to draw you even closer, and itâs fucking *freezing*. You stiffen and squeal into his mouth before he barks out a laugh and presses another kiss to the powdery crown of your head. He retracts his clammy hand and gives a gentle swat to your rear.Â
âTime to go, sweetheart.âÂ
Youâll go to that cozy little nook for a pint while they prepare your takeout order. Something hearty, something sticky and saccharine for dessert. Maybe ragout and blueberry bread pudding. Extra butterscotch sauce.
Youâll lean into Johnny while Simon pays the bill, licking the last sticky drop of cider from your lips. Heâll taste the cinnamon on your tongue as he loops an arm around your waist to pull you out of the booth.
Youâll fill your belly as you sit on the floor cradled between broad, jean-clad legs, and probably get rich sauce on your sweater after being roused by some ridiculous quip. Itâs not the tv that makes the viewing fun - itâs the commentary.
Youâll fall into their bed to be disarmed and disassembled, laid bare. Itâll be a sweet cacophony between the three of you, a symphony of harsh grunts, soft sighs, and wails of pleasure. A resplendent choir will resound in your head at that staggering peak. A myriad of colours will align and blind you with pure octarine and bright white light. Theyâll put you back together again with a care youâd never have expected.Â
Youâll fall asleep bracketed by two exhausted hunters, pomarine and polar, hunger fully satiated once more.Â
How do they look so soft?Â
Youâll wake up to the smell of coffee and honeyed cream, bitter and sweet. There will be bright mandarin in the air - preserves, fried eggs and briny bacon to pile onto buttered toast. One more layer of trepidation will crumble away as the morning routine dictates.Â
Itâs tangible - you can feel yourself falling into an easy rhythm with them. You donât know how they do it, how they always know the right time for legato or staccato or when to break you out of the shell of a nagging thought.Â
You suppose you could get used to it.Â
#Pearl muses#simon riley x reader#simon riley x gn!reader#simon riley x you#soap x reader#soap x gn!reader#soap x you#simon riley#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#john mactavish#ghoap#ghoap x reader#call of duty fluff#call of duty modern warfare#cod mwii#banner by cafekitsune
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Half-Starved
- Synopsis: Simon âGhostâ Riley was born hungry. Born with a relentless nagging feeling curled up right between his oesophagus and the squirming muscle of his stomach. From the very moment Simon opened his eyes, he was hungry for something he could never have; affection. But then there's you. The night owl so willing to offer the one thing he can't have.
And he finds that he'd bleed out if you told him you liked the colour red.
- Oneshot
- Obsessive! Ghost/Reader
- Word Count: 3.7k
- Warnings: Descriptions of gore, canabalism as a metaphor for love, mentions of past domestic abuse, implied past sexual assult, implied stalking
- Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52474849
Simon âGhostâ Riley was born hungry.Â
Born with a relentless nagging feeling curled up right between his oesophagus and the squirming muscle of his stomach. From the very moment Simon opened his eyes, he was hungry for something he would never have. Left to starve in the gloom of the locked cupboard he was shoved into for not shutting up. He spent fifteen-odd years greedy for any drop of affection he could get. Anything he could grasp and hold onto, no matter how many bruises it would leave him with. No matter how long he would have to spend chained up like a bad dog in the corner of his room licking his wounds telling himself that it was worth it. That the blood was worth it. The pain was worth it.Â
Anything to be acknowledged.Â
Now, once again finding comfort in the gloom of his home, he is still hungry. Even more so.Â
To him, touch is a fragile subject. A broken subject he hates talking about because of him.
Gunfire and stab wounds are nothing in the face of a fatherâs punch. Intimate, innocent digits can still feel like creeping, coercive hands.
Yet, a fasting manâs stomach still growls.Â
Fragile subject or not, he still craved it. Maybe too much. He wanted, wants, to be held tight enough so he doesnât break. Wants to be vulnerable. But heâs still afraid heâll end up being a scared kid looking into the slit eyes of a snake again.
He blames his younger self for the predicament heâs found himself in. Wants sit down with the kid and shake him by the shoulders and ask why. Why he put himself through that for that long.Â
Even so, he canât blame him.Â
He knows how hungry he is now; feels the scraping like dull claws against the soft spot between his liver and his spleen. He can only imagine what it was like for him as a child.Â
Heâs blocked most of those memories out now, though.
He sits through the tugging, the pulling, through each dull meeting. Each dark night spent alone in his bunk. Each evening he spends licking wounds that just won't close.Â
Unfortunately, this issue, this dilemma, is a hard one to fix. A hard want to satiate. His callsign is well earned, afterall. Sometimes even he blurs the lines of the dead man walking and the human being hidden behind layers of constantly taught muscle and scarred skin. Makes it a bit hard to gain attention other than fear and unease, let alone affection.
But then thereâs you.Â
The first word that would come to his mind is kind.Â
Out of the blue, draped in moonlight and glimmering stars, you appear, seemingly out of nowhere. But, youâre here. And there. And everywhere, really.Â
He sees you in the local corner shop, holding tightly onto the sleeve of whoever youâve brought along.Â
He doesnât see their face. Too obscured by the dim lighting
He sees you on the train, and occasionally on the bus: brushing your hand, intently, against that of your work friendâs. You both take the same one into the city, bright and early hoping to miss the morning crowd but never succeeding.Â
He doesnât see their face, either.Â
Bit by bit, he begins to notice things. Notice habits that shouldnât be his to examine.Â
You use physical affection as not only a way to show affection itself, platonic or romanticâhe isnât particularly good at guessing unless itâs glaringly obviousâbut as a form of comfort and encouragement as well.Â
In less than a month into his leave, youâve managed to become a staple in his civilian life.Â
He sees you in the morning, always at the train station with breakfast and lunch in hand, looking quizzically around to see if youâve missed your train like a doubtful deer.Â
He knows you know you havenât. Youâre like him; youâve got an obsession with time.Â
While his is instilled by the harsh words of the military, yours is brought about by a tight work schedule. And maybe something else. He wonders what that something else is as you both board the already stuffed train, both standing in the same carriage full of warm, already tired bodies.Â
He sees you in the afternoon as well, sitting outside on a park bench with a friend and eating lunch. While you talk, you have a habit of taking tiny crumbs off of your sandwich, flicking them off to the ratty pigeons that flock around your feet like moths to a flame.Â
You always have the same lunch; the same sandwich bread from the same corner shop with the same filing. You have a thing with regularity, routine, as well, it seems.Â
Just like him.Â
Of course, he sees you in the evenings too. You both take the same train home, and almost always end up so close yet so far from each other on the carriage. Your work friend gets off at the stop two before yours and Simonâs; always leaving you with a pat on the shoulder and a closed eye smile, which you almost always return.Â
You have a habit of jumping, ever so slightly, when you get off the train. Simon finds it quite cute. Itâs almost as if youâre actually afraid of the gap.
Of the fall.Â
Either way, you part ways without knowing youâre parting from him, leaving you missing from him, and head back to your home. Ghost has an impulse to follow you, spurred on by a mix of curiosity at where you live and wanting to make sure youâre safe.
From what, Simon doesnât truly know.Â
He almost does. Stands awkwardly in front of the station watching your figure turn into a small dot, but Simon urges himself to head home. To sleep.Â
You linger in his thoughts each time he walks back.Â
At first, heâs oddly amazed, a bit in awe, if he were honest, that you can give so much affection so easily, touch so easily, and receive it tenfold from the people around you.Â
Then, thereâs annoyance, titering on the fine, chipped-away line of anger. Like a mantra, he asks why itâs fair someone can give, give and keep on giving, let alone receive something back, and he canât? How can you hold someone so closely and not be afraid of a knife in your back?Â
Maybe thatâs Ghost talking, he thinks.Â
Eventually, he falls off the flimsy line of annoyance and anger and into the muddied trench that is jealousy. Jealous not only of you, how you can give and receive so easily, but of the people in your life who get to experience the affection that you give to any warm body that passes by you. Said people who donât understand how precious and rare that experience is to others.Â
To him.Â
He wants to taste it. Badly.Â
Then, it morphs. Twists and turns like a dying thing, all red with chunks of fur sticking at odd angles, into attraction. Turning from a want to be held, a quiet plea to the God they taught him about in primary school for you to keep him together for just a little bit longer, to a need. A need to kiss until both your lips are bloody and raw, bitten and chewed like a pomegranate, seeping your liquid life for him to drink as an elixir.Â
Heâs seen the way you kiss, and God above he needs it. Needs you. He doesnât care if itâs the fleeting, platonic kisses you gift to your friends on the cheek (he wants you to take a chunk out of his cheek. Wants you to chew on the fat like the gum you always have in your mouth), or if itâs the rough ones you give to the people you bring home. The ones that have them chasing your lips for more, which you always allow because you never stop giving.Â
Simon wants it. Ghost needs it.Â
Consequently, the dull scratching of the claws in between his liver and his spleen grows sharper. After years of the scratching, the pulling, the tugging, heâd thought his hunger pangâs talons had grown weary, thought heâd grown accustomed, but he feels them. Feels the sharp pang like a pistolâs bullet and it bloody hurts. Has him hunched over on his bed trying to claw out his stomach because, for the first time in years, it's hurting him.Â
And, for the first time in years, Simon âGhostâ Riley decides to listen. Â
As more time passes, more time spent getting soaked outside your house in the rain waiting for you to come home because youâre oddly late for all the time heâs known you, it changes again. Writhes around in his stomach and the fat in his veins, to something much worse. Much more harmful, at least, to you. In all the pain of his hunger, he contemplates taking chunks out of you. Maybe that will satiate the creature that squirms in his bloody viscera, laying claim to all of his innards in an attempt to get him to feed for once in his life.Â
He wants, needs, hungers to feel the comforting weight of your blood in the bottom of his stomach.Â
Zoning out during meetings easily turns to daydreaming of taking one of his hunting knives to your flesh. Cut strips of skin, like youâre his sacrificial lamb to slaughter and devour, and finally put those butchering skills he gained to work somewhere other than on the field.Â
He promises heâll be delicate. Promises heâll be kind. Promises Simon, and not Ghost.
Promises Simon, whoâs more corpse than he likes to think.
He canât help but imagine how youâd cry when heâd do so. Fat tears dribbling down your soft cheeks and getting caught in the corners of your lips.
He hates hearing people cry.Â
In his dreams and his waking hours, heâs endlessly followed, stalked, haunted by the echoing sobs of someone lost to him in some distant sun-stunned, sand-smothered land.
But you?
He doesnât mind one bit.
Itâs another piece of you for him to consume, another piece of you that you can offer to himâgift to himâto bring you two together.Â
He knows, God knows he knows, how much it takes to be vulnerable. He doesnât think heâd be able to describe what heâd do to taste your tears. To savour your salty sadness upon his tongue and be able to offer comfort. To lick your face dry and hold you in his arms; warm body against warm body just like heâs daydreamed about.
The more time that passes, the further he falls.Â
On slightly rarer occasions, ones where heâs alone in the leaden quiet of his room for longer than a human, a soldier, should be, he thinks about feeding your own lovingly cooked gore to you. Getâs him more riled up than heâd like to admit.
At first, itâs a blurry image. Murky and obscured by a civilian subconscious that tries to remind him of who he is. But, slowly, it dissipates. Becomes as clear as a mirror reflection: a candle-lit dinner, like the oneâs his mum had in the pictures that used to hang on the wall. Warm lighting. Heâs tried his hardest to cover up the smell of his cigarettes for you, a scent that clings to his walls like mould. Hopes that the smell of whatever heâs cooked for you overwhelms it.Â
Soup sounds good, doesnât it, ey?Â
Itâs a macabre yet intimate fairytale that finds its way into his thoughts when all else is quiet. Leaves him tossing and turning in his bed because the scraping just won't stop. He swears he's bleeding out from the inside, and heâll break his own kneecaps from how long heâs been on the floor at your feet begging you to make it stop. To stop the scratching, the itching, the nagging feeling. For you to clean and stitch up his wounds, new and old.Â
Quickly, he finds heâs utterly enamoured with the thought. Obsessed with it the way Price does with his plans. Fixated on the idea of being that close to another human being. To be able to physically intertwine each otherâs cells through mutual consumption. To be sewn into the quantum patterns of your being. For you to feed him a proper meal like his parents never could.
He remembers being taught in his History classâthe one with the old hag of a teacher who, with her droning words alone, convinced him not to take it for GCSEsâthat in some old, archaic civilisations, people used to eat each other as well. Cooked an arm or a hand for their lover as a promise. A promise that in life, and eventually in death, the two of them would share an utterly unique bond. Eternally linked to each other's souls.Â
If he were honest, he didnât listen for shit in those lessons. Only really paid attention when they had a sub, and even then half the class was too rambunctious for anything to really get taught. The only reason he remembers was because his mates joked about Victorians eating long-dead mummies like it was a five-star meal for weeks after that lesson. The joke got old quickly, but it stuck with him.
Even so, Ghost decides he could die happy on the fieldâlayered in mud and blood that wasnât hisâknowing that a part of you was anatomically intertwined with him. That, even when he was dead and gone, probably much earlier than he should be, you two would still be connected. He would have a piece of you, and you him.
And you, him. Itâs another idea that stays with him, plagues his mind and every meal he eats: mutual consumption.
He decides he doesnât mind extra scars, extra wounds, because he knows youâll lick them clean for him. Knows you wash them, stitch them up and check on them so they heal properly.Â
In the end, that is the intimacy he dreams of. The affection he wants from someone. Wants from you.Â
His body is yours, as yours is his. So let him be yours. Give him that chance. Let him feed. Let him fulfil you.Â
The idea leaves him with a small smirk on his face, one he doesnât do well to hide. One that has Soap nudging him in the ribs for with a prodding grin of his own.Â
So, he makes a decision. For once, Simon and Ghost agree on something and work together as one, instead of turning the other off for the greater good.Â
The decision? To feed.Â
To finally know what it is like to be full instead of half-starved.Â
The scraping, the nagging, only grows stronger.Â
He makes it a point to bump into you as much as he can before his next mission.Â
Anywhere is a dinner table to him. On the crowded train, brushing his rough hand against yours to ease the hunger for even a second. In the artificial lighting of the run-down corner shop, grabbing that bag of snacks that are just out of reach for you. âAccidentlyâ bumping shoulders with you on the pavement. That one allows him to talk to you, too.Â
If only for a moment.Â
All he wants is anything. Anything will do. But it only temporarily satiates the pang, doesnât satisfy it. He just gets hungrier and hungrier and hungrier.Â
He knows youâve begun to notice him. Youâre getting hungry too. He just hopes itâs in the same way he hungers for you.Â
He hopes youâre hungry for him, and him alone.
At first, you attempt to offer him platonic comfort, which, God above, tastes so sweet. You offer soft touches on his shoulder. You gift fingers intertwining with his own as you cross the street to his home because heâs gone off on another bender trying to stop turning over in his bed and seeing the inside of a coffin that he has to dig his way out of again.Â
âN youâre just some poor night owl whoâs trying to be kind.Â
It becomes a routine. Both for you and him. You know heâll come out of the pub at quarter to one and you know heâs expecting you. Youâll walk the same walk to his home, fumbling with his keys as he looks at you with the softest eyes youâve ever seen on a man, hands intertwined. Youâll still carry him home and close the door softly with your foot as you lay him on his couch and get him a glass of water and whatever painkiller he has lying around. Youâll still stay as he chats, drunkenly, to you. Youâll take care of him and heâll be whole, for just a moment.Â
At least until the morning comes, anyways.Â
He begins to hate the sunrise. Hate the light and the work and the people which drag you away from him.Â
He hungers for your touch the same way water hungers for the cavities of peopleâs lungs. Hungers for your skin like he hungers for the nicotine in his cigarettes. Hungers and begs and pleads until you both fall like Icarus; wax melting and dripping off your backs as you try and crawl your way back to the sun, back to the light, while he drags you down into the depths of the deep blue. Keeps you tight in his embrace so you canât disappear into the blue again. Disappear like the moon and the stars that hide their fires and fade away when the sun comes up.
It's almost poetic.
In the midst of your drowning, the front door opening startles you out of your stupor.Â
You do that a lot, Simon notes. Youâll black out and stare at a wall blankly for hours, either in dead silence or to some piece of music too quiet for him to know the name of. He doesnât question it. Verbally, at least.Â
From how easily you dissociate, heâd say itâs something you picked up a long time ago. Heâll find out when, eventually.
He knows the face of it, afterall. The blank eyes that see nothing and everything. He isnât wrong to wonder what youâre thinking about, or what memory plays on loop that keeps you a temporarily vacant statue.Â
Sometimes, something small in him wonders if he's the cause of it.Â
Then he remembers heâs human. Heâs human and itâs normal to seek affection, and he carries on eating.Â
Carefully, you get up from the couch, approaching him as he walks over to the kitchen counter. The blue plastic bag he has rustles loudly in the spotless kitchen.Â
âWhatâs that?â You ask, gently, placing a hand on his shoulder to get a better look.Â
Please give me more.Â
He lets out a knowing grunt and pulls out two round, red fruits. At first, you mistake them for apples, but the star-shaped top throws you off.Â
âPomegranates?â
He nods, looking into your eyes for some sort of approval.Â
Gingerly, you take one of the pomegranates out of his hand, his fingers twitching as the pads of your digits brush against his.Â
Iâll take anything you give.Â
Your eyes dart back and forth between him and the fruit as you do so, careful to earn his compliance as you inspect the fruit.Â
Just please give me more.Â
Theyâre a deep red, almost crimson, and the shine reflects your face on its vermilion skin.Â
âChopping board,â He pauses. âPlease?â
Nodding absent-mindedly, you place the fruit back into his cupped hands.Â
You open the drawer behind the both of you and pull out an old chopping board, red soaked and stained into the wood that Ghost just canât seem to get out. You place it on the counter next to the pomegranates, along with a clean bowl he didnât even hear you grab, and then find your way to the knife block. Hearing the subtle shink of a blade against wood, Ghost turns and scrutinises you as you try to remember which knife is the fruit knife.Â
Choosing the shortest one, you hold it by the handle, facing downwards just like Simon taught you, and place it on top of the chopping board with stitched-up hands and missing fingers from all the times heâs begged for more. From all the times youâve said you have nothing more to give, but he knows you always have more. Knows youâll always keep giving.
Iâll take even the spare and broken bits. The parts you donât even want.
You watch, intently, as he delicately cuts the top of the pomegranate off, slicing through the thick skin.Â
Just look at me.Â
Gently, he peels the layers of the pomegranate back, kissing each one with the tips of his fingers, letting it stain them something beautifully violent.Â
Touch me.Â
He reveals the soft viscera inside, glancing back over to you again and again. Looking for something in your eyes.Â
Let me be full.
Then, he cuts it into quartersâcontinuously surprising you how gentle he is with itâbut not down to the skin. Leaving it in a filleted star-like shape, he turns it upside down on the bowl, and, using his hand, slowly shakes the seeds off of the fruit into the bowl.Â
Once heâs finished, sure heâs got all of the seeds off, he moves onto the next. Repeats the same process. Maybe he repeats the same thoughts, too.Â
After heâs done, he sets the empty corpses aside. The red spills out onto the counter. Youâre worried itâll drip down onto the tile.Â
Heâs staring. Not at you, but at the bowl of red. Itâs almost eerie, how still, how quiet he can become.Â
The silence is deafening. You want to fill it.
Suddenly, he takes a bloody scoop of the red viscera with his hands.Â
Be full.Â
Lets the pinkish liquid dribble down his hand.Â
Let me fill you, and in turn, you me.Â
Then his forearm.Â
Feed on me until there is nothing left.
Then down onto the immaculately clean counter.
Let us decompose, intertwined.Â
The kitchen smells like bleach. It makes the back of your throat itch.Â
He offers his hands out towards you, like an olive branch, like some lurid type of eucharist, and, like the obedient dog you are, you feast.Â
Please. Please. Please, please, please, please-
âI love you.â He mumbles, fondly watching the muscle of your tongue dart out to catch the pinkish juice dribbling from your frothing maw.Â
-just say you love me, too.Â
Youâre eating, and you begin to repeat it, but Simon âGhostâ Riley has taught you well not to speak with your mouth full.Â
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I've spent the past week hearing 'Abbey' by Mitski at every turn, so it's safe to say that was the main force driving me to write this lmao. I'm pretty sure that if I heard that song or saw something about bloody pomegranates one more time I would've started chewing the flesh off of my own bones.Â
Cannibalism as a metaphor for love is an incredibly profound, and, in some ways, poetic literature device for the sheer destruction a toxic relationship can cause, so, I wanted to try my hand at it! And also to stop myself from clawing my face off from hearing anything about this cannibalism metaphor from literally everywhere on the internet.
Do tell if this feels too out of character for Ghost. I originally planned this for KÜnig, but I ended up changing it. Overall, thank you for sitting down and reading my work! It means a lot <3
I'll leave it up to you if the metaphor is really a metaphor in the end.Â
#yandere#yandere x you#yandere x reader#yandere x y/n#yandere x gender neutral reader#yandere x gn reader#yandere x male reader#yandere x female reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley#call of duty#cod#cod mwii#cod mw2#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon riley x y/n#ghost x reader#ghost x you#ghost x y/n#mel's musings#cannibalism as a metaphor for love#obsessive behavior#obsessive love#stalking
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Can I be the artist of your eternity?
#poetry#lover you should've come over#rock n roll#vintage#patti smith#robert mapplethorpe#photography#just kids#alt girl#nina simone#tim buckley#jim morrison#janis joplin#jimi hendrix#70s music#70s aesthetic#70s rock#female musicians#my muse#lyrical poetry#dancing barefoot#leonard cohen
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bestfriend!simon whoâs in a band and is hopelessly in love with you <3
he throws you a huge surprise party for your birthday and sings this song while looking into your eyes adoringly the entire time. you also thought simon was cute, but who didnât? but now as he serenades you on your special day you canât help but see him in a whole new light.
at the end of the night, when itâs just you two sitting on your front steps, simon admits he sung the song just for you. heâs rambling on about how he didnât want to ruin your friendship but he couldnât go any longer hiding his feelings, and you shut him up with an experimental kiss on his lips. he pulls away and stares at you in disbelief because woah?! is it possible you feel the same as him?
âsimon, no oneâs ever done something so sweet for me before. youâll always be my best friend no matter what. i want to take the chance with you.â you have no idea whether thisâll blow up in your faces in the future, but right now under the stars all you know is youâre head over heels for simon riley <3
#forever obsessed with this song#so of course i had to write this#simon would definitely call you his muse and write ballads about you <3#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader fluff#simon riley x you#simon ghost riley x reader#mic drabbles#mic writes#bestfriend!simon
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i need godot, lang, and simon to all be in the same room for like an hour. the nonsense level would be off the charts
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When I saw this part in game, I couldn't help but imagine an entire different situation, but with Ghost having the same look in his eyes.
Dark.
Intense.
Focused.
They eyes of someone that sees everything and knows everything that goes around him, at every single moment, constantly scanning their surrounding as if to look for some hidden threats that could disrupt the momentary peace he found in your company.
And I couldn't help but imagine that those eyes are actually looking at you, the one that got his whole heart into shamble but who has not even realized it yet.
He wants to get closer to you, to hear your delighted laughter ringing in his ears: a sound so beautiful, it helped him ram through some of the shit he had to do while on the battlefield.
He wants to make his move, to close the distance between you two.
You raise your eyes and meet his gaze, just for a second, a single moment crystalized in time: and finally - finally - you see it.
You see it clear as day: the scorching flame of pure desire in those dark unfathomable eyes that never showed anything but an abyss to the rest of the world; eyes that always seemed to follow you, wherever you were not close to him.
He wants to reach out to you, but showing you that glimpes of the flame that is burning him from within is all that he dares to reveal, even to you.
But there are some doors that cannot be closed, once opened.
And Simon Riley has decided to open them for you.
#call of duty#simon ghost riley#ghost x reader#ghost x y/n#ghost cod#ghost x you#ghost#simon riley#CoD#Nemo Writes#honestly this is just something I wrote in 10 mins inspired by that gif of Ghost#now I now how poets felt when writing poems about their muses lol#that man has magnetic eyes#and the most beautiful ones#also please keep in mind that#I am a newbie to CoD fandom#and I am still playing my way into the games#so far I have just played CoD Modern Warfare (2019)#and I am working my way through CoD Modern Warfare II
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The Louvre has a selection of empty frames displayed on their own, as objects in their own right (2nd floor, Sully wing, 2024)
#sculpture#i mean technically#musee du louvre#paris#realistically theyâre just some great frames being displayed but i like to mentally play nina simoneâs sinnerman and think âheistâ
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